Dear Old Love

Dear Old Love

Claudz referred me to this blog & I am loving it!

These are all posts from people who have lost their loves - and I have even added 1 myself.

Some are just so sad they make me cry.
Some are just so beautiful, they make me cry

Check it out on http://dearoldlove.tumblr.com/

Here are some of my favourites:

Friend to the World



If this is your idea of us being friends then I guess I’m friends with every single person in this world that I don’t talk to.



Kissing Unsoberly


I haven’t kissed anyone soberly since you.



One S, Two P’s



You taught me how to spell “disappointed.” You also taught me how to feel it.




What to Fear


You shouldn’t have feared our love. But you should fear my psychotic ex-girlfriend tendencies.



Awake and A Miss



I miss you a majority of the time. The rest of the time I’m usually sleeping.



Who Forgets Who


I don’t want to forget you—I want you to forget me, so I can have another chance.



Only Different



I just wish I had the chance to do it all over again…only different.

 
Not Thinking


Not thinking about you is wearing me out.

 
Irreplaceable



You can’t replace me because there’s only one.

Freudian Flip


Thank you for getting me to go to therapy. Fuck you for giving me so much to talk about.



Our Beginning



I want to go back to our beginning and do it all over again.



Please pass the tissues....

How to not think about him

Get out there & have fun!

Since our breakup, my life has been keep busy - even though I still have my moments where I miss him... it aches.

Here is an example of my schedule since the breakup:

Tuesday: D Day - the breakup
Wednesday: Off to Photoshop class
Thursday: Coffee with a friend
Friday: Dinner at another fave place - La Trinita
Saturday AM: The Animal Race - This was an awesome activity.

Based on the Amazing Race, all teams perform tasks and race to different pit stops to get their next clue. The pit stops were all the beneficiaries of the race and it was so interesting to see where they all were - not that we had much time to look around, we were too busy painting faces, finding Basil the goat and trying to avoid speeding fines.
Tee and I were a bit unlucky in that we followed the wrong race officials and ended up having a 15 minute delay in beginning our 1st task.
That and 30 minutes stuck in traffic and we still managed to get 13th out of 40 teams.
The best was that we raised money for the animal homes - and that makes me proud.

Keep your eye out for the next race - the website is http://www.theanimalrace.co.za/ and you can find them on Facebook too.

Saturday PM: Watched Charlie St Cloud and had some coffee at the Da Vinci Hotel in Sandton - I am a sucker for the pretty black and white decor and white suede chairs and at R15 a Latte, this place is almost cheaper than most coffee shops!

Sunday: Barnyard Theatre for my Dad's birthday. Watched the Summer of Love based on songs from the 60s. I can't say that it was 1 of my favourite shows. The standard wasnt up to the caliber of other shows I have seen at the Barnyard and I found that the female singers tended to shout just a bit too much. Perhaps the loud music was overpowering them.
A bit disappointed, but my parents had a fun time, so I am glad.

Monday: Photoshop
Tuesday: Dinner with Links
Wed: Photoshop
Thursday - Sat: Cape Town
Sunday: Shopping for 3 birthday presents
Monday it starts all over again!
I do not have an open night until 5 December - and I hope this is going to help me get over QT. I may be recovering in a psychiatric ward, but at least I will be drugged up and oblivious by then! :-p

Playing with my cute little houseguest also kept the tears at bay...

How cute is that face??

Uniquely Me - iDale

I am all into my daily blog fix & I love all the pretty blogs out there.

But today I would like to introduce my 1st Male blogger - Dale.

His blog is no nonsense and straight forward. It has alot of uselful and interesting information and appeals to the testosterone levels within me.

He is based in Johanesburg, South Africa and covers a wide range of topics -  cars, gadgets, wine, food and everything in between.

Visit iDale and enjoy some great reading.


More about Dale:

1: Why did you start blogging?
I've always had a passion for design, technology and marketing. I got tired of helping other people setup their web sites and figured that an outlet for my creativity and opinions through a medium that combined my interests and talents would be a winner (for me at least). I'm not scared to share what I do with people and despite blogging for a couple of years, I've only started to discover my "voice" in the past two months - I consider it a new start.

2: What is the weirdest thing a girl has said to you?

"You look like that guy from Greys Anatomy. You know, THAT guy?" - Funny thing is that I've never watched the show and quite a few people have said that to me over the years. I can only hope he's a looker!

3: If you were gonna become a transvestite - what would your name be?

Dalina

4: You are going to a dress up party - what do you go as?

Hugh Heffner - I would sport the satin pajama pants, black slippers and the velvet leisure suite. To top it off I'd puff a big cigar and throw some baby powder in my hair for the aging effect.

5: If you won the lotto - what is the first thing you would buy?

Plane tickets to europe with the intention of finding the second thing I would buy: A villa in the South of France.

6: What do you love most about women?

I've never loved a specific thing about women and people are often shocked when I tell them I don't have a preferred "type". For me it's about the whole package and the way a woman carries herself. If the hair, eyes, lips, boobs, bum, legs and personality come together in a way that turns me on, then I'll love it.

7: After how many dates do you think is acceptable for a 1st kiss?

One or Two. Surely there wouldn't be a third date without a kiss?

8: What do you spend most of your day doing?

I'm office bound so my day revolves around communication & email. When I've got a gap I'll browse some blogs, see whats trending on twitter and make myself a cappuccino with froth.

9: What makes you laugh?

Anything Will Farrel does or a tickle in the ribs.

10: What is your life motto?

I ask myself this every single day - Is what you're doing today going to give you what you want out of life?

The Cr@p just keeps coming....

Booked our venue for our year end function in April and confirmed it twice in May and June.

Today she cancelled on me because she double-booked herself.

WTF? 3 weeks to go, people have nought outfits for the Oscar themed event and now I have to find a restaurant at R150 a head for 90 people.

Awesome. (NOT)

I am going to give 1 of my favourite restaurants a call tomorrow and hold thumbs they can accommodate me.

Mangiare (Italian for lets eat) is a beautiful restaurant in Melrose Arch.

The waiters are all super-friendly and so well trained, the decor is stunning - a red carpet staircase winds up to the top level where red padded walls compliment the white chairs and tables.
Both floors boast a beautifully lit bar.

Meals such as Camembert stuffed chicken breast wrapped in parma ham drizzled with cranberry sauce and salt, pepper and Balsamic glazed fillet steak will tease your taste buds.

Cocktails are to die for - Vanilla and honey martinis and rasberry daiquiris, yum yum yum!!!

Their menus are purple and embossed - it appeals to me on every level... pretty, delicious and alcoholic!

Check out their website on http://www.mangiare.co.za/

Break up Etiquette

So now that QT and I are over I have taken his photo out my wallet, I have changed my desktop background, I have removed the photo off my wall at work and I have taken off my "I love QT" keyring etc

What do I do with the keyring? Give it back to him and tell him to give it to his next girlfriend?

I also have a pair of his socks and he has my dressing gown, but surprisingly after 9 months together, we were both pretty good about keeping our stuff.
He had planned to keep an extra change of clothes at my house, I had planned to keep a pair of sunglasses in his car. We just never got around to it

So what do I do with the keyring? Dump it?

What do I do with his socks? Have a little reunion to do the swap?

I wrote to him on facebook this morning getting a few things of my chest:


Hi


I just can't help feeling that there are unsaid things from my side and I have to get them off my chest, otherwise they just build up into misplaced resentment. I can't help feeling hurt by a lot of the things you said to me and still am very disappointed by what you said because I still feel that there were issues that were blown up to become bigger than they should have been.


The point of this letter isn't to have a big back and forwards discussion about us because you had clearly made up your mind already - I just want to have my say to get it out:


For 9 months you were a huge part of my life and after my initial doubts, you and I worked so well. I was happy, you made me smile, you were open to trying things and doing things and I loved it




Somewhere along the line your racing became an issue and you were always tired and my job became an issue and my anaemia and I was always tired. And we stagnated and I got bored. The zoo was a spark that made me remember how we used to be- the stolen kisses in public, the sneaky bum grab, a hug from behind and a random kiss on my shoulder. My best was wrapping my arms around you and hugging and kissing you in the middle of nowhere


I think we forgot that we needed to go out and have fun and that no matter how much you wanted to sleep or I wanted to watch tv that that open air was good for us.



By becoming bored with our relationship, we fell into a rut that I don't think we even realised at first.

While I was away I knew we needed to regain the excitement that we had in the beginning. It wouldn't have been a huge effort to change it because we had it there before. All we had to do was remember. I was willing to and you weren't




I just want to thank you for everything these last few months QT. The bad things and issues between us are in the foreground now and are overclouding the good times, but that is the great thing about issues, you eventually forget about them and focus on the good times.


I had so much fun with you, I was so happy with you and I will never forget the happy memories we had together. I wish we had lasted longer because I think we had the potential.

He replied not long afterwards:

I don't want to give you my take on what I think because then its just going backwards and forwards like you said you didn't really want to do.


I just really want to thank you far everything and all the good times we had together. I had an awesome time with you and I hope you had a good time with me aswell. I also hope that in time we could still remain friends because you are such an awesome person and I don't wanna lose a friendship aswell.
 
That is that - I cant do or say anything else.
 
I dont know if I want to remain friends, right now it just hurts too much and why should he have my friendship when he didn't want me? (I almost wrote as much to him, but decided rather not to say anything)

I have to focus on moving past this in as mature a way as I can. Even though I feel like shouting and screaming at him just to get back at him for hurting me.

I just cant believe it is over.

Breakups....

.... are never easy

I miss QT
I am angry with QT
I am disappointed in him
I thought we were stronger, he didn't

I am going to miss the random kisses on my shoulder, the loving kisses while holding hands.
I am going to miss cuddling together watching Vampire Diaries or Supernatural
I am going to miss driving fast in his Subaru with the wind whipping my hair and the total exhileration of a fun day out with my boyfriend
I am going to miss the feeling of being able to call him to tell him about the stupid things in my life, because I know he is interested and wants to know all about my life
I am going to miss his smell

I wish I could phone him and tell him about the little kitten that is my temporary guest
I wish we had more time to do all the things I still wanted to do with him

I think we needed a relationship shake up because I was getting a bit bored
I didn't think we would break up

I don't know if this is the best thing for us - it might be

Charlie St Cloud

I watched Charlie St Cloud last night - oh my what a lovely movie...

Besides the fact that Zac Efron is smoking hot, it has a great message. Life your life for today!

Zac has grown up and out of his Highschool musical role and actually impressed me with his depth as an actor. I reckon he will go places.

Things I loved about the movie Zac in the movie:

I adore well toned muscles on a man - a wet shirt moulds very nicely to his back and I have to admit to drooling a few times in this movie
The kissing scene filmed entirely in Silhouette was a stunning choice and had a very strong effect - and highlights Zac's perfect nose.
Zac Efron has the most stunning eyes and his smile too. But when he smiles without showing teeth, that is when I find him the sexiest!
I love that he learnt how to sail for this movie
I like the shorter hair
He has beautiful hands
I love the twist (I never saw it coming, Tee did)
I love the lesson it teaches you
I LOVE ZAC EFRON