What happened to MC?

We still talk on the phone & he is still 1 of the best listeners I know.

Recently I had to make a big decision because I was seeing QT and I was chatting to MC every night & it was giving me sleepless nights... until the both discovered this Blog.

I must admit that the relief was huge!

Both men handled the situation so well - atesting to the fact that they are both indeed fine, upstanding men that I am very fortunate to have in my life.

I decided to give it a proper go with QT and MC and I had a chat about it.

MC is not in the right place and he needs time to get over his break up without pressure from me. When he is over it, we go from there (of course this is all dependent on where QT and I are at that stage)

My 1 real dilemma lies in the fact that realistically QT and I dont have a future together... yet I LOVE being with him and he makes me so incredibly happy!

Why would I want that to end?

So MC invited me to go and visit him in his new place over his birthday.

Obviosuly I want to go and see him - but I cannot possibly put QT in a situation like that.

If the roles were reversed I am sure MC would not like me doing that to him.

QT and I are planning to go to Ballito over my birthday and I want to visit MC while we are there.

MC and QT are friends and I dont want to stand in the way of that and also MC has had a tough time lately.

I think he needs the company and it will do him good to have some friends around as well.

I promised him that as a friend I would always be there, and I dont intend to break that promise - especially now when I get the feeling that he needs a friend. 

This will make you go "Aaah..."

Some smses I've recently received from QT - these are too special not to share:

24 April:

Hey my Princess! Ur so amazing! I just wanted u 2 kno:)

26 April:

U take my breathe away. How do u do it. ur just the best lady any guy could ask 4

27 April:

Someone asked me to describe u in 2 words, they expected me to reply "The Best" but I just smiled and said "Nothing Compares..."

Now tell me I am not the luckiest woman in the whole wide world to have this man all for myself!?

Sometimes I wonder....

.......what is the meaning of life?

 

 

 

My goal has always been to live a life where I can make a difference to people's lives. Not huge, but enough for them to smile and say; "wow Flirty made me smile today" or "Flirty was really thoughtful by doing....."

 

 

 

My life is so filled with work and stress that sometimes I feel that I am missing out & not making enough of a difference & lately I find myself daydreaming about the potential I would have to make a difference I would have if I had more time.....

 

 

 

I would travel more, I would throw more parties (dress up parties), work more on our event company (my true passion) and I would spend more time with my family & friends.

 

 

 

There is so much to experience in life & yet I find that most of these hours are spent getting shouted at by my boss because he is in "one of those moods", working towards a deadline or doing housework & then thanks to my mystery ailment, needing to sleep all the time.

 

 

 

My short term goals for this year are:

 

Pick really awesome (not necessarily) expensive presents for my friends & family


Appreciate them


Appreciate QT & how lucky I am to have him in my life


Go on more short weekend breaks


Do more fun activities (Canopy tours etc)


Say no to an outing, event etc when I know I cannot afford to go instead of putting myself further in debt


Spend more lazy days in PJS watching dvds


Updating my blogs more


Working more on the Evnt company marketing


Throw a masked dress up party (Casanova the movie style)

 

Let's hope the rest of this year is more smooth and meaningful....