Cocktails, Men & Fun

My year ended and began with:

• A marriage proposal
• An adultery proposal
• A sex proposal

3 different men. None of them QT

How's that for surreal?

I have never been a fan of New Years Eve parties, but 2010 was a fun ending for me.

I spent the morning with Bebe, we made some breakfast and had a lazy morning chatting.

I went home and being alone my thoughts naturally drifted again to QT.

I was feeling quite maudlin until I arrived at J's house to spend the evening with him and Li. J made us pizza dough (from scratch) and we made up our custom pizzas which we cooked in the Weber.



The heart pizza is mine - before going into the fire



Pizza 1 - good enough to eat - & I did!

Some delicious Alto Rouge accompanied our pizza feast. We played Scene It ( a movie quiz) on X Box and had a blast.

I got to bed at 2:30 and I had a twinge of sadness, but overall, I was happy that I got to see in the new year with some good friends.

My first day of 2011 ended with a lovely evening spent with my parents. We had some dinner and really good laughs and I find myself appreciating these special moments with my parents more and more.

It was only the 3 of us - once I get married it won't just be the 3 of us - and as much as I long for the day I can finally have my husband share these special times with my folks & me - I am glad I have these memories.

Why am I still feeling sadness?

My confidence has taken a bit of a knock.

No girl wants to admit that a guy who was totally crazy about her, gradually decided that he didn't want her anymore.

I keep wondering what I could have done differently, should I have said this or that... the usual.

Yes I have said before that it is probably best we ended it - but it still doesnt make the sting of rejection any easier. It is still really difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that someone decided I wasn't enough for them.

I am looking forward to moving on - I suppose it is the natural process of healing.... and I look forward to getting though a whole day without constantly thinking about him and missing him.

At my age - You dont spend 9 months of your life with someone not to be hurt when it doesnt work out.

Bring on 2011:
There are cocktails to be drank, men to be met and fun to be had!!

*In case you are wondering: I turned all 3 proposals down!

Bye Bye 2010

As 2010 draws to a close, my wish is to meet a man who will love me for me, make me feel special & loved and bring out the best in me.
I want to rest my head on his shoulder and wrap my arms around him at night and look into his eyes as we say our vows.
I am heading in to my 32nd year, and I can honestly say that as proud as I am of being independant, I want to spend my life with somebody special.

I am tired of being envious and watching all the happy couples
I am tired of watching my frinds with their husbands and always being the 3rd wheel
I am tired of always being alone
I can change a lightbulb, I just dont want to have to
I can change my tyre, I just dont want to have to
I can fix the leaking toilet and broken washing machine, I just dont want to have to

I know he is out there looking for me - can someone please give him a GPS so he can find me faster?

Back in Time

As the year is coming to a close I have been reconnecting with alot of friends from my school days.

I love reminiscing about the past and getting to know the people they have become now - 14 years on.

M: He was rugby captain with a tough exterior. We dated briefly and I got to see the softer side of him. Years later (after avoiding him for 4 years - see previous posts) we have started up a friendship again and he has admitted that I am still the only one that gets to see his softer side. He has even gone as far as to say we should get married!

Aub: Also dated briefly in our last year. He was part of the popular crowd and I was in the middle. I never figured out why he wanted to date me and now years later we connected on Facebook and had a long chat. Strange how we both perceived things very differently then. What I took for him not being interested, was his way of protecting me because I was a prefect.
All this time he says he had really strong feelings for me and I never saw that because I was so busy wondering what "the" popular guy saw in me. Everyone wanted to date him and he picked me.
Turns out he had the reputation, but it was all just rumours.
I am enjoying getting to know him now, he surprises me with his depth of character, he isn't the joking jock anymore.
He has a cute friend named Warren, I saw his photo on Facebook and commented "cute"
Apparently Warren is single and Aub is trying to set us up. I said I would meet him, what the hell? I have better things to do that pine away over QT.
Warren is back after 10 Jan, and I will meet him then.

LV: He was a very shy guy in highschool. I had a mild crush on him but nothing ever happened.
We went to our matric farewell together but LV was very innocent in those days. I say in those days because since chatting to him lately he has shocked me (in a good way) he now has a very wicked, and flirty personality - which I love!

I love sexual innuendos and good, fun wickedness

Sunshine & Fun

I have been super busy entertaining my friend Shez.. Its nice to see SA in a different light when you have international visitors.
The most fun experience for me were the Canopy Tours in the Magaliesberg mountains - these mountains are the 2nd oldest mountain range in the world!

Safety is paramount and you are always connected by at least 2 lines, so there is no chance of anything happening to you.
There are 10 platforms - The platforms are about 20 - 40 metres above the ground and the longest slide is 120m long. It all goes by so fast, but what a thrill!
Afterwards you enjoy a light lunch while watching the dvd of your adventures.
We even received a certificate saying we had done it - nice touch.

A visit to the Protea Fire & Ice enabled us to enjoy some delicious milkshakes - with flavours such as Ferrero Rocher, Crunchie, Oreo Cookies & Jelly tots, you just cant go wrong!
I have had the Oreo cookies, Jelly Tots and the Peanut butter and banana so far - YUM!

The decor at the hotel is so pretty we couldnt resist taking a few fun photos.

Shez also treated us to a decadent paraffin pedicure and we walked out with very pretty toes - can you guess which toes belong to me?

The Bird Gardens helped me get a bit of sun again (Can anyone say "bright red lobster skin"?) The show was fun and the gardens are always very pretty for a nice stroll around.

We visited the Lion park in Fourways - it sure has changed alot since I was there a few years back.

You get to pet the cute Lion cubs - and watch out for dangling camera straps, they like to play!
They also have giraffe and Cheetah and hyena camps as well as buck and various other animals.
The curio shop has some cute souvenirs and really adorable baby clothes.

A lot of shopping later (I dont want to see another shop for a very long time!) and Shez's trip was over.

Its nice to have some peace and quiet - but I almost dont know what to do with myself.....

I have been missing QT, even while having all this fun. I dread to think how much I am going to miss him now that I am alone with some time to think.....

Happy, Merry.... what?

A belated Merry Christmas to you all!

I hope you were all good so that Father Christmas was able to pay you a visit and leave a little something special?

Once again this year I was spoilt and even though it was a smaller spoil, it means more to me because even tho times are tough all around - the fact that I still got presents, makes me feel blessed.

Amongst my gifts I received vouchers, a silver heart necklace on a pink cord, a little cat make up bag, a glass nail file with a swarovski heart design, cute little tweezers, a cute T shirt, a lovely pair of slip slops and gorgeous pink nail polish and a lovely wine and champagne carry set called Yellow Tail all the way from Australia.
Oh and lets not forget my pink Guess handbag!! yay!!

I am happy I didn't spend alot of money this Christmas - I plan to get out of debt this year and go to Thailand in October.

We lazed around over Christmas day - it was too hot for much else and we watched dvds and lots of reality tv.
Kendra - gotta love her! She has a foul mouth, but she is inspirational in the way she is trying to shed her baby fat (plus the pounds she loaded on by eating all the junk food she could find!)

What did Father Christmas get you?