Eehhh... What's up Doc?

There has been so much happening lately that I feel like a chicken without it's head most of the time.

I come home at night and I am so exhausted I just want to fall into bed (and I have done just that - clothes & all - at least twice) and sleep!

But I am nicely settled today and I am taking some Me Time

I warn you though - this is going to be a super long post. Fill up on coffee, I can't have you falling asleep at your computer running out of time to read everything.

Here is a round up of what's been happening in my life. The Good. The Bad. The Ugly.

Health:

I have finally gone to see a chiropractor about my back. She has left bruises the size of fists all over my hips and lower back - but as much as I want to hit her - I know it is for my benefit.

I have a few more sessions and I then should be on the mend.

Apparently with the blood flow being blocked in my legs - it has caused a huge build up of toxins - which explains the Kidney Stone and Ear infection.

How did I hurt my back you ask?

About 2 years ago I was iceskating and I fell on my bum and passed out on the ice.

I awoke on the side on a bench with the sound of children crying.

Massive pain in my lower back resulted in a visit to the chiropractor - damaged the bottom 3 vertabrae. They get inflammed and need to to be stretched out every now and then - something I haven't done.

Career:

As of today the new PA starts work.

I will spend about a month handing over to her and sitting with her going through things. I am so excited about not being the "Personal Asswiper" anymore.

When you are a PA, the entire company thinks you are at their disposal. My theme song was "You want a piece of me" by Britney Spears

I hope that new girl settles in nicely and gets on well with us. My favourite candidate was a lady who I think was alot like me, I think we had similar personalities and she was a cat person too.

She was the leader of all the interviews until this girl came along and my boss just clicked with her - so I hope for all our sakes that it works out, otherwise I am left firing her and getting a new PA!

I am very disappointed by the way my whole promotion has been handled.

The announcement was only made last week - and even then it said nothing about me being a Marketing Manager. It merely said I will be taking over the Marketing functions.

My colleague made me a sign saying "Marketing Functioner" as a joke! :-)

My Boss said not to worry - I must still ask for a manager's salary. Apparently the company politics are running rife!

I think the MD is still feeling loyalty to the past Marketing manager - as she will still work for us, but in an entirely different capacity.

I dont think they understand that I want the Title. I want the respect that comes with it. I have earned it by working really hard.

I will also get to travel to Dundee, Scotland and Cologne, Germany next year - very exciting!

The MD has been calling me and telling me how much I will have on my plate, how I wont be seeing much of QT ect etc, I am feeling a bit intimidated, but then I spoek it out with my boss and we determined that I have been doing much more work than the Marketing manager ever did.

I felt a bit better - but we will see how it goes.

I begin my design course on 25 October and I start learning all the new products.

I am doing the fun stuff though - like shopping for corporate gifts.

I also have to decide what prizes to give away at our "Night at the Oscars" year end function.

I also have enough budget to buy everybody a small gift - I am struggling to come up with the perfect gift - I am torn between a hamper of sweets and biscuits for Christmas time or because it is a Christmas gift - make a more decadent hamper of luxuries - on my budget perhaps I should say Luxury ha ha

I want to negotiate my salary. I need to get out of debt.

Especially after having to repair the heater valve on my car which broke, blowing a constant blast of hot air. The springtime temperatures have been around 26C and I have been roasting in my car because no matter what - you can't stop the hot air from blowing!

The repairs cost a pretty penny and gobbled up even more than the money I made as a result of all the things I sold off.

Christmas time:

Speaking of gifts - I got an email from Claudz about a Santa Shoebox for kids who don't get presents over Christmas time.

This is a wonderful initiative to make Christmas special for the kids and I aim to make up at least 1 box.

Lovelife:

QT and I have been a bit rocky lately.

We had a huge fight 2 weeks ago - the biggest one we have ever had. Neither one of us could move past it and it took us about a week to get back to normal. QT and I have an agreement to never go to bed, or go home until we have made up - so this tell syou how bad it was.

I think it has a lot to do with me and my self confidence as well as my stress levels being so high with the job uncertainty and deadlines for our brochures being printed for the congress at the end of the month.

My sex drive has diminished and is almost non existent. This is so unlike me - I am , was, a Nymphomaniac!

I feel fat and really unattractive and I am so concious about my fat wobbling and jiggling that it is all I think about.

If we do have sex, I refuse to be on top because then he gets a great view of my spare time on my tummy and my double chin and even my boobs  -which used to be pretty & perky - are now just big lumps of jelly.

With my confidence being so low I am also hesitant to go out with his friends. As it is they are all so much younger than me. I feel like they will look at me and wonder why QT picked me.

I even cut off contact with some of my school friends - I used to be curvy and attractive, now I am just fat. I am 13kgs heavier than I was 10 years ago. And I just can't sem to find the motivation to lose the weight.

I eat bread most nights for dinner, because it is by far the cheapest meal.

Eating salad and fruit is an expensive exercise (excuse the pun!)

QT is just such an amazing guy and I am crazy about him.

I loev cuddling with him on the couch, I love being with him.

I love him to death.

I can't imagine my life without him, yet I wonder why I sometimes find myself pushing him away...