I love Surprises!!

Day 1- 31 December:



I woke up this morning with a man in my bed!

MC was due to arrive yesterday for my much-anticipated visit.


Imagine my mammoth disappointment when I spoke to him at 4pm when he broke the news that there were no flights, but he promised to visit me in the first week of January.

I made plans with Dino for a movie instead, I was NOT going to sit at home moping. (as much as I would have liked to!)


A few minutes later I get a call from RaceCar telling me they feel so bad that MC couldn’t make dinner so they were taking me for dinner instead.


I told them I couldn’t make it and he uncharacteristically wouldn’t let me out of it.


I had to break a rule and cancel my plans with Dino.


At 8 pm Race Car & AC fetched me and off we went to Emperors Palace.


We were so busy looking at the Gautrain that we missed the turn off and ended up at the airport.


We pulled over to get the Garmin and the next minute MC is walking towards the car!


That was like the best surprise ever! I didn’t expect a thing!


Even thinking about it this morning, I grin stupidly (cue floating hearts out of eyes)


MC and I sat chatting until 6am the next morning and let me state for the record – I am crazy about him!

I have met a man that actually gets me! He understands the way I think and he keeps me entertained.


Man I am hooked scared – this means that all the effort spent getting over my break up (this break up fucked me royally for the entire year) has now reached it’s end.



I am over Alex. (Hale - fucking - luja)


And now MC has the ability to break my newly mended heart.

I say BRING IT ON – I think he is worth the risk!



Day 2 – 31 December


Not going as anticipated.


A bit disappointing – I can’t figure out the sudden reason for his wall.

And no kissing or action of any sorts. WTF????

Luckily we’re going out to celebrate New Years and Racecars birthday at the Barnyard Theatre.

Happy Birthday RaceCar!

Day 3 – 1 January


Happy 2010 everyone!


Going a bit better with MC but still scary stuff. He was great last night and more relaxed. This morning – back to being reserved.


I am confused.


Why isn’t it flowing as easily as Day 1 and the wedding?

He says he is generally quiet but I have a feeling something is up.

Day 4 – 2 January


MC and I had a good heart to heart last night. (and got a little bit of naked action – high emotions and sex can become somewhat intertwined at times)

The reason for his wall?


Very recent break up with Devils Spawn. (not is words – mine from what RaceCar tells me)

He is taking it quite badly and didn’t realise how much it had affected him.


I am glad he told me and I gave him some pertinent advice – I can speak from experience after my rollercoaster relationship with BD.


He said it helped. It definitely brought us closer.


For his sake I hope he moves on – it isn’t a good place to be.


For my sake I hope he moves on – I want him!


I dropped him off at the airport today and I was relieved and sad to see him go.

He has a lot to sort through and I am sure I am not making it easier. I took major strain while he was here and because I have such strong feelings for him, my emotions are tied up with how he is feeling.

After Alex and I broke up I was destroyed. I had thought Alex was the One. And I still think we could have had a really solid marriage.


Clearly it was not meant to be.

I was beginning to give up hope of ever meeting anyone like Alex again.


And in walks MC. He has renewed my hope.


I have not felt like this about anybody since Alex and I had almost forgotten what it felt like to actually meet someone who was just right for me. I think MC and I have major, serious potential for something long term.

I hope that he sees me for who I am. I don’t want this chance to slip through my fingers.


Problem 1: He lives in Durban and I live in Jhb.


I don’t see me moving to Durban for him. (never say never, but I don’t think I could leave my friends and family)


He has just starting working for a great company – I don’t see him wanting to leave Durban to come here)

But… I will cross that bridge when and if it comes to it.

Something I remembered the other day:


A couple of years back I went to see a Psychic and asked her my relationship future.

She said I would have my heart broken by a dark haired guy and then a fair haired guy – once I had healed I would meet the man I would marry.

At that stage BD had broken my heart. (Dark hair)


Then last year (January 2009) Alex broke my heart (Fair hair)

Is MC The One?

Time will tell.