Sometimes I wonder....

.......what is the meaning of life?

 

 

 

My goal has always been to live a life where I can make a difference to people's lives. Not huge, but enough for them to smile and say; "wow Flirty made me smile today" or "Flirty was really thoughtful by doing....."

 

 

 

My life is so filled with work and stress that sometimes I feel that I am missing out & not making enough of a difference & lately I find myself daydreaming about the potential I would have to make a difference I would have if I had more time.....

 

 

 

I would travel more, I would throw more parties (dress up parties), work more on our event company (my true passion) and I would spend more time with my family & friends.

 

 

 

There is so much to experience in life & yet I find that most of these hours are spent getting shouted at by my boss because he is in "one of those moods", working towards a deadline or doing housework & then thanks to my mystery ailment, needing to sleep all the time.

 

 

 

My short term goals for this year are:

 

Pick really awesome (not necessarily) expensive presents for my friends & family


Appreciate them


Appreciate QT & how lucky I am to have him in my life


Go on more short weekend breaks


Do more fun activities (Canopy tours etc)


Say no to an outing, event etc when I know I cannot afford to go instead of putting myself further in debt


Spend more lazy days in PJS watching dvds


Updating my blogs more


Working more on the Evnt company marketing


Throw a masked dress up party (Casanova the movie style)

 

Let's hope the rest of this year is more smooth and meaningful....

 

In my Absence...

..... so much has happened: I....

1. 
   
   Have missed Blogging so much - but my head has not been clear enough - until today
2. 
   
   Went on holiday to Ballito with QT
3. 
   
   Have almost destroyed my nail by being too stubborn to go to a doctor for a fungal infection (and still refuse to go)
4. 
   
   Have discovered I have Anemia and High Cholesterol, but still haven't discovered what is wrong with me for the reason I actually went to the Doc in the 1st place - it is extremely disheartening. Suspected case of a Virus similiar to Yuppie Flu
5. 
   
   Have effectively re-organised my bag by keeping all meds & girly things in a nifty clear pouch that is easy to take out and find stuff
6. 
   
   have found a stunning Bridesmaid dress for the wedding in June but have to make the decision whether or not to pay in R800
7. 
   
   Have realised I need to get out of debt & pay off my R40 000 credit card / loan debt (making Point 5 harder)
8. 
   
   Am trying to discover a way to ask for a salary raise (to make Point 6 easier)
9. 
   
   Have cut my hair in a much different layered style to what I usually have
10. 
    
    have been feeling very negative about work
11. 
    
    Have made QT & me - OFFICIAL
12. 
    
    Have discovered that being in a relationship with QT is so much more fulfilling than I ever imagined
13. 
    
    have lost 4kgs since January - but realised I have alot more still to lose to get rid of Gloria
14. 
    
    Have realised how much I hate doing my on housework
15. 
    
    attended a course that was highly beneficial to my work
16. 
    
    discovered Purple Nail polish and it's all I want to wear
17. 
    
    realised that QT is 1 of the true Gems out there
18. 
    
    have discovered that Sleeping with a friend can complicate things - ever if it is not from your side
19. 
    
    have realised that some people have much harder lives than you realise yet they survive it and are a reason to be inspired
20. 
    
    have realised that planning events is fun & so worth it in the end
21. 
    
    am preferring the life of Hermit & feel bad for ignoring my friends, but I just don't have the mental capacity to socialise without having a mental meltdown
22. 
    
    Know that my friends understand & will be there for me - wither to visit my padded cell or to celebrate with me
23. 
    
    need to get my life back - my boss & work colleagues calling me after hours and on weekends is unacceptable
24. doscovered that my "secret blog" is not so secret anymore - MC & QT have discovered it!
25. have to decide whether or not to continue with this blog or start a NEW secret blog
26. 
    
    need more sleep
27. 
    
    love my kitty cats so much
28. 
    
    am hanging on to my sanity by a thin thin thread.....

Total Randomness

1. I have put on alot of weight and very quickly - it is actually a bit worrying - need to see a doctor just in case there is an underlying problem.
2. Have resorted to calling myself Gloria (hippo from Madagascar) - it is a much nicer way than calling myself FAT
3. I am loving my Kelly Clarkson CD - Long Shot and Already Gone are absolute winners.
4. I wish I had people to make me look glamourous
5. I wonder what the weird red mark - looks like a bite- on my leg is
6. I like my sparkly nails - just had them done
7. I wish the hair all over my body would all join forces and stay on my HEAD
8. Nothing beats a good night out than an EDEN concert
9. I miss being an EDEN groupie
10. I looking forward to my Easter hoiday in Ballito - but not the part where I have to wear a bikini
11. I long for the day where I could fit into a size 36 dress
12. I absolutely love my 2 cats and love that they love me unconditionally even after putting them through hell with the move
13. My parents are awesome
14. I wish my hair was longer
15. I wish I had more money to spend on pretty dresses and nice shoes and handbags
16. I love spending time with QT - he is amazing
17. I like the latest fashions that hide the Gloria rolls
18. Not looking forward to winter where I have to cover up mp sparkly toenails, but am looking forward to covering up the other bits
19. Loving topless Jacob in New Moon
20. Still need a massage

I need....

1. To get more sleep
2. To get settled into my new place
3. More hugs and Kisses from QT
4. Learn patience
5. Lose weight
6. Longer weekends
7. Pancakes
8. A full body massage
9. A facial
10. More Money
11. To be more positive
12. A HOLIDAY!!!

Count to 10...

9...8...7...

Nope still not working.

Had a run in with the new landlords last night and I am still seething.

They promised me the place would be complete when I moved in 1 March.

It is almost end of March and I have only just received cupboards, a basin in the bathroom and a kitchen.

I am still waiting for a cupboard door in the bathroom and the sealing on my bath to be completed.

I wish the dust would settle now - my place is always dirty and it frustrates me.

Then they have the cheek to tell me they told me from the beginning my place wouldnt be ready - when I have smses proving otherwise.

This is the exact reason I didnt want to move in to begin with.

Then they give me a lease to sign and put me as the Lessor and them as the Lessee - have you ever?

I have until end of August to look for something else - wish me luck.