Singledom...

...has it's perks.

 

 

1. I can make plans with my friends at the drop of a hat and not worry about dinner
2. I can flirt with the cute guy & if I want to, I can kiss him in wildly in public & take him home & make memories that will live with me forever. (actually I wish this happened more often)
3. I can eat cereal for dinner if I feel like it
4. I can sleep late and wake when i want to
5. I can spend all evening on my PC if I like
6. I can give my 2 cats my undivided attention
7. I can stick pretty butterfly stickers on my wall

 

All this is great - yet I have to admit that it seems to be getting a bit old. Probably because I do not have as much of Point 2 as I would like to.

 

So having MC here for the wedding was a peak into what married life would be like:

• Wake up in the morning and while one makes the coffee, the other makes the bed.
• Drive to work and chat about plans for that night and dinner.
• Spend time in the kitchen having tickle fights while dinner is being cooked and then afterwards sitting outside on the patio with a glass of wine chatting about all sorts of things while giving the cats love.

MC is a quiet guy, but he has something about him that make people love him instantly.

 

Since he left, my work colleagues have not stopped talking about him & want him to come to our christmas party on Saturday and then want me to make him stay, even the tea-lady thinks he is nice and should be my husband. My sister-in-law wants me to marry him.

The minute I load it as my Facebook profile pic, a friend writes and wants to know about him

A stranger from school whom I have had no contact with for years, sees his photo and says I must find a man and why not him.

 

I would tend to agree where it not for our very strange past. MC and I hit it off since the very beginning & yet we have never managed to quite start a proper relationship or even a proper fling.

 

He drove the hormones nuts every single day he was here, yet it never felt like it was right to make a move on him.

 

MC remained an absolute gentleman, even when my bathtowel slipped and he almost got an eyeful of fat backside (courtesy of my absence from the gym for the past 6 weeks)

 

I would love to make a proper go of it, but I don't want a long distance relationship, so perhaps it is just not right to start anything that we will just hurt us both.

For all I know, he feels nothing for me anyway and then this whole post is just a story about 1 sided attraction.

 

That would just be embarrassing wrong!

 

  

Action? YES PLEASE

I am a bad girl with standards

MC kindly accompanied me to the wedding (pictures to follow) & is here for a couple of days.

He has still not made a move & for once I find myself being extremely shy.

I am not sure whether or not to make a move on him. I would hate there to be an awkward vibe between us if he is not interested.

Right: I am cracking open the wine tonight - maybe it will be good for both of us.

1 seduction on it's way......

Men!

After QT & I ended it, we kinda hooked up again occasionally for a movie and a bit of action.

That dwindled off as he got into the party scene with his friends again (he is only 22 after all) & as I found out on Facebook the other day - he is also "ina relationship" but it is complicated.

I started my mini "thing" with Cutie (also 22) & soon broke it off when I realised I was going nowhere with it.

Let's be honest - you need true passion if you are going to be with someone - and that is something that is sorely lacking in my life at the moment.

MC has let me down and I am currently debating whether or not to cut him out of my life once and for all.

He came up with a great idea to go away for our birthdays because we are a week apart. I loved the idea and did some research into possible accommodations.

I have always wanted to stay in the cutest little treehouses which also boast a private jacuzzi bath in another little tree linked by a walkway.

The treehouses are along the Midlands Meander, and because MC is from that area, I would fly to him and we could drive there.

It is a bit pricey, but I am prepared to stay there a night or 2 and spend the rest of the week at his place where we can laze about and watch dvds and eat popcorn.

I am still waiting for him to commit to anything. Seriously?!

It p!sses me off that this was his idea to begin with & now he just ignores me when I ask him what is happening.

A night or 2 is not too hard on the pocket- surely a night or 2 is not unrealistic if he had considered what budget he would need for a week away.

I have pretty much given him an ultimatum on the holiday - but I have now decided that the ultimatum will extend to our friendship/relationship as well.

I will not be messed around by anybody - he has a few days to give me his decision & if I hear nothing from him, then that is over.

I am crazy about him. But I am not crazy

I miss you MC

You seem to know exactly.

You might just be the thing that calms my mind and satisfies my body

What happened to MC?

We still talk on the phone & he is still 1 of the best listeners I know.

Recently I had to make a big decision because I was seeing QT and I was chatting to MC every night & it was giving me sleepless nights... until the both discovered this Blog.

I must admit that the relief was huge!

Both men handled the situation so well - atesting to the fact that they are both indeed fine, upstanding men that I am very fortunate to have in my life.

I decided to give it a proper go with QT and MC and I had a chat about it.

MC is not in the right place and he needs time to get over his break up without pressure from me. When he is over it, we go from there (of course this is all dependent on where QT and I are at that stage)

My 1 real dilemma lies in the fact that realistically QT and I dont have a future together... yet I LOVE being with him and he makes me so incredibly happy!

Why would I want that to end?

So MC invited me to go and visit him in his new place over his birthday.

Obviosuly I want to go and see him - but I cannot possibly put QT in a situation like that.

If the roles were reversed I am sure MC would not like me doing that to him.

QT and I are planning to go to Ballito over my birthday and I want to visit MC while we are there.

MC and QT are friends and I dont want to stand in the way of that and also MC has had a tough time lately.

I think he needs the company and it will do him good to have some friends around as well.

I promised him that as a friend I would always be there, and I dont intend to break that promise - especially now when I get the feeling that he needs a friend. 

It's complicated!

I have nearly lost my mind a few times these past few weeks.

How I am holding onto my sanity - is beyond me.

Between finding a place to stay and then moving in at the very last minute to an uninhabitable place, to my (ex) house mate being downright rude to me on move out day, to work being an absolute nightmare.

The situation between MC & QT has been playing on my mind alot and all came to a head the other night.

Let me just state for the record that QT is unbelievable.

This man is awesome and I cant say enough how I wish he was older.

I had a bad week last week and the only thing that got me through it was QT. He is quitely supportive and oh so sweet.

I have been considering putting a holt on my relationship whatever you want to call it with MC. There is not much going on besides our conversations.

Yet I cant break the hold he seems to have on me. I cant imagine my life without MC.

QT was never supposed to be any more than wishful thinking on my side, then when we hooked up, I thought it was a flash in the pan.

Now I know it isn't.

I want QT in my life always - I guess deep down I know nothing will ever come of it because of he age gap - yet I hope to be there to watch him grow into the amazing man I know he is destined to become.

I am jealous of the girl who will get him 1 day.

I have been so worried about QT getting hurt - so when he told me he knew - I was devastated that he might be hurt and then so relieved when he seemed ok with it.

He then asked me to be his girlfriend - oh man how I wish I could say yes!

But that just gives me more of a chance to hurt him - and I am avoiding that all costs!

So instead I have now changed my status on Facebook - "its complicated"

That sums it up!

Checking in

What a rollercoaster ride lately!
I must say I have been missing my Blogging  - these are my therapy sessions!

So much has been happening, so let me fill you in...

QT, what a sweetie pie. He is an absolute gentlemen and has such a good heart.

We all slept over at RaceCar and AC the other night - and QT and I stayed up chatting. And he kissed me.
Now as much as I have been attracted to him, I never imagined ever making a move to kiss him - oh yes, he is 21!
But let me tell you - this Cutie Pie can kiss!

I was blown away! and he tickles you as he kisses, and I am a sucker for kisses and tickles!

We have chatted about how we want such different things in life - his dating life holds so much more still to come! I have dated and I am ready to settle down.
So we have agreed to take it a day at a time and see where we end up.

He makes me feel sexy and I love spending time with him.

Yes I have a Toy Boy! *Grin*

MC...

I cannot tell you how well things have been going with him.
I am getting impatient though - I realise he has so much to work through and I need to be patient, but it is difficult - especially considering I want him!

On Friday we had our usual daily chat and i said how I was not looking forward to Valentines Day. MC hates VDay, he says that it is a commercial holiday designed to make money, blah blah blah.
I told him it is a chance toshow someone you care, without the need to buy expensive presents.
So he says to me, I should fly to Durban and visit him.
I decided to be spontaneous and thought - what the hell?

Hopped on a plane on Saturday and went to Durban!
He fetched me from the airport and took me to the hotel - he had booked us in to a hotel on the beachfront!

We had champagne, chocolates and fudge and I gave him a massage which turned into some action!
He took me around and showed me all the places he has been talking about over the last months and now I have an idea of what his life is like.

Late Sunday night I was back in Jhb - back to reality.

MC still has so much to work through- I was exactly where he is this time last year - so I know how he feels.

But a small part of me cant help but want him to realise that  I am the one for him.
Surely this should help him to feel better?

Exciting Developments

For the past 2 nights I have been on the phone with MC until midnight - not discussing the ex, just everything else.

We are laughing like schoolkids, and getting to know each other.

This is the MC I know from the wedding, this is the MC I am losing my heart to!

He seems to be handling the breakup alot better and says my speeches have helped him.

Without sounding arrogant, I give very good advice on relationships - because I have had a few doozies myself and I always like to analyse them and look at the lesson I can take from all the bad experiences.

And I enjoy giving advice if it means I can help people.

The more I talk to him, the more I realise that he is the type of guy that is right for me.

I ask him all sorts of curveball questions and he has answered them so well.

I like to aks crazy questions like: What would you like engraved on your tombstone when you die?

The answer would say alot about a person and how they would liek to be remembered.

MC even ased me when I am coming to visit him in Durban.

We are making progress - I am taking it slow because he still has alot to get over, but I am hoping this is the beginning of great things to come!

Heartaches & Breakups & Work all SUCK!

Same shit different day!

I am so not cut out for this working thing!

Anyway - moving on...

My friend Tee has recently broken up with her boyfriend of 2 weeks, a week ago.

And she is handling it so badly.

Crying all day, wanting to call him and beg him to take her back, wanting to cancel our weekend plans because she says she will not be good company.

They have almost been apart as long as they were together!

I am struggling to be a supportive friend.

I check on her every day to see how she is doing and I keep her occupied and I sms her when she is having a weak moment.

But when do I get tough?

I can understand heartache - I have that with MC.

I have been giving him advice on his breakup, and I have a while to go before he gets over the break up.

I hope I don't help him find himself and help him see how amazing he is just in time to meet another woman!

Oh Gees -  that would be my luck!

News Flash

MC called me on Friday.

I was shockd & slightly tipsy at the time of his call - & it was amazing to hear his voice again  even if he is suffering with the flu.

SO being slightly tipsy I asked him why he is calling me after his non answer answered my sms.

He replied he thinks I am silly because I should know that he likes hearing from me and he has been thinking of me alot. (Darn my crystal ball must be on the blink again)

He said that he is going through a tough time with his breakup and I need to give him some time. WHich I can appreciate and he did tell me the last day he was here.

I am glad he called me though and he said i must pick up the phone if i want to chat to him - and he told me I can call him on Sat if I like - which i did.

He called me today again to tell me that he has seen his ex twice but they are not getting back together.

Thy had a huge fight today because of some pictures I posted on FB and tagged him in - all innocent party pictures mind you.

So for an hour I lectured him on how she has no rights to comment on anything in his life anymore because she is not a part of his life anymore.

I told him to maintain his dignity and stop thinking about her and how much she is hurting, he needs to get himself right now. he told me she is bad for him - there is no way i am letting him get back together with her!

Reason 1: She sounds like she was really bad for him - any woman who take all your self confidence away from you is bad news.

Reason 2: I want him.

MC is an amazing guy and I am not passing up the opportunity to be with him.

And I will not let a woman ruin the person I know he is.

This is my mission.

I saw a Falling Star on Saturday and made a wish - a part of that wish is that MC would be happy - the other part was that he and I would get together (& that would make me happy and it would make him happy!)

Can anyone see my Stupid Grin? Yes... MC called me!! (Insert flashing hearts coming out of my eyes)

Overcoming Disappointments

Have not heard a word from MC since last week Wednesday.

It SUCKS.

There is nothing I can do.... I do not run after any man. EVER.

I am convinced he is back together with his girlfriend and doesn't have the guts to tell me.

I will bide my time. I am still convinced we would be good together - he will realise this eventually.

I will be there when he does, but I will not be waiting! No Siree!

Already the flirting is in full force.

I was feeling really bad about things & it sort of pushed me into going a bit further with MBA than I had intended.

Shit that man can kiss!! He has talents with his tongue that make me weak at the knees and literally had my fingertips and toes & even the end of my nose Tingling!

I know it isn't right to carry on because it might give him false hope - but right now he is helping to restore some of my confidence.

His kisses are addictive!

In other news:
The Bax will be returning to SA at the end of January - he and I have a dinner date, and I plan to fully seduce him!
Today he was saying that he turns 39 in February.
I teased him that he was old and he said, "you're only as old as the woman you feel"
So I retorted, "In that case I can arrange that you feel 30!"
I had him speechless and he laughed and said he's blushing! ha ha

I hope we get a repeat of that night in his hotel room - now that was amazing passion! My heart rate trebles when I think of it!!

My hormones are going beserk and I have been enjoying the harmless flirting with a few guys I know. (If I am very honest my heart is still sore) but nothing like good flirting to make me forget my pain.

What I would really like to do is to grab a young guy. That is my next goal - when I can pluck up the courage to do it!
My housemate has a sexy 19 year old brother who said he would do me (his words not mine) but I have a feeling he would chicken out if it had to go further.
A woman I worked with has a cute 21 year old son who is into me, but it is too close to home.

RaceCar has a really sexy guy working with him - QT... he has the most stunning blue eyes and is the sweetest guy.
I think he is into me, but it is too close to MC and I am not chancing anything.

So there go all my options... darn!

Stay tuned for the next installment of "My Raging Hormones."

Advice - to heed or not to heed

All my friends have been attempting to give me advice on the MC situation and my head is starting to spin!

Dino tells me not to play hard to get or give him space because if it is achoice between Devils spawn and myself and I take a step back it will give MC a chance to get back together with her.

If I stay in the picture & remind him I am here he might choose me.

What he says makes perfect sense.

However:

I do not want to crowd him. I am sure MC's emotions are going all over the place right now & I wouldn't want to add extra pressure and scare him off.

Remember I am the newest on the scene, it might push him back into her familiar arms (already i fear that he is going to get back together with her and try again for "old times sake")

MC does not like to hurt people and I fear he might listen to his conscience which I am sure is sending him mixed signals right now.

SO what do I do?

I thought of reminding him I am here, but gently. So for instance send him an sms telling him I will be sending him random smses with single letters in them.

These letters will eventually spell out a phrase. Once he guesses the phrase he wins a prize... I go visit him in Durban or something like that.

Phrase could be: I am crazy about you.

Then every sms I send will have a random letter.

Example: Hi MC how is your day going? (Letter z)

Next sms: Sleep tight (letter c and bonus i)

Eventually he will look forward to my smses because they might have  clue from me (all guys like a challenge) it'll keep his mind away from her and then he'll discover that I am crazy about him as well.

Your guys opinion?

Kissing MC

I am feeling quite vulnerable today.

I have been thinking about MC the whole day and most of last night. I sent him an sms:

Flirty is missing MC very much. "Goodnight MC" says Flirty

We didn't get much chance to kiss or do much of anything physical while he was here.

I got dressed while he was in the same room and he never tried to make a move on me. We slept in the same bed and he didn't try anything.

I was a bit disappointed and only on the last night did I find out why. I gave him advice on his heartbreak and he reached out and stroked my head.

On the first night we kissed very nicely. I thought it was the beginning of more to come. It wasn't. On New years eve as the clock hit midnight, we kissed Happy New Year (no tongue)

We kissed bye at the airport but again no tongue.

Kissing is very personal to me - and I love kissing! It gives me insight into the other persons emotions. It forms a bond between me and that guy.

I am kind of like Pretty Woman in thisregard. I could sleep with a guy easier than i could kiss him if I do not feel an emotional connection.

I want his heart to be healed. I want him to be over the heartache I know he is going through.

I want to be somewhere deserted (under the gazebo again) and hold each other and kiss and become closer.

I know we are right for each other. I hate waiting... I want to start a relationship with him.

I'm in trouble

I have fallen for MC. In a BIG way. Yes yes I can hear you all telling me that it is too soon, blah blah blah.

Unfortunately I have never been able to choose the when or why it happens, my heart decides for me and if you thought I had a mind of my own, my heart outdoes me!

Crushes – yes I have them all the time.


Lust – yes had those too.


Love – Not often.

Love # 1:


Name: The Greek


Long term prospects: Zero


Reason: Lives in Greece & different culture


1st day of highschool (1992) – Fell in love with his turquoise eyes and light brown hair and cute laugh. I go home that day and write in my diary that I have met the man I will lose my virginity to. (At this stage I had not even kissed a guy yet!)


1993 – He moves to Greece and I get to see him once a year when he comes back to SA. Not condusive to a close relationship.


1996 – I lost my virginity to him on 1 of his visits to SA.




Lesson learnt: When a man loves you he will do anything to see you and treats you with respect.


What would I change: Have him live in SA.


Love # 2:


Name: BD


Long term prospects: Zero


Reason: Emotionally unavailable & not trustworthy.




2002 – Was set up with GC and fell in love with BD instead.


I couldn’t stop staring at him even though he didn’t say a word to me.


After a few months of dating GC I ended it and eventually in the New year I was very brave and made the first move, I was not letting him go!


After cheating on me twice we eventually ended it.


Lesson learnt: BD taught me more about myself and relationships than anyone else. He taught me that I deserve to be treated with respect (because he didn’t always respect me) at all times and never settle for anything less.


He also helped me to tame my temper a bit.


When trust is broken, you never get it back.

What would I change: More openness and honesty


More communication


Wish he wasn’t so selfish




Love # 3:


Name: Alex


Long term prospects: Excellent




I 1st met Alex in 2004 and when he walked out the door I told my colleague I was going to marry him 1 day.


He was totally unlike the guys I usually found attractive – blonde with blue eyes and a very sexy british accent to boot.


I was too afraid to ever make a move so we remained friends and met for coffee once a month until 4 years later in 2008 when he made the move over dinner 1 night.


I was madly in love with him and he seemed perfect.


He was a true gentleman, listened to my stories and even offered great advice.


Was totally understanding and supportive and I was convinced we were going to get married.


January 2009 he pulled the carpet from under my feet and told me he could not marry me even though he loved me more than anyone he had ever dated and he would have been very happy with me forever, just didn’t want to marry me.


Took me 10 months to get over the heartbreak, it almost destroyed me.




Lesson learnt: Everything I thought I wanted in another person exists – I just have to be patient until I find it


A boyfriend can be your best friend too



What would I change: His friends – I really didn’t like them!


Potential Love # 4:


Name: MC


Long term prospects: Remains to be seen – but I think there is HUGE potential


Reason: Once he is over his breakup issues…. He seems to be everything that I want in a man.


I cannot stop thinking about him. We had a rocky few days because he has just recently broken up with his girlfriend and has lost a lot of confidence.


I have a good feeling about him, the same way I had felt about Alex. By now I know exactly what I want and what traits I want in another person.


MC has all these traits.


He was extremely quiet at stages – and I didn’t know how to handle that.


Once he explained the reason behind it, I can fully understand the turmoil he is experiencing – the end of a 2 year relationship is so difficult.

For now I will try help him as much as I can from Jhb – I would like to get to know him better and it is almost a good thing to meet him like this while he is having a hard time, because I get a good indication how he handles bad experiences as well as the good.




I have the utmost respect for MC. He really is one of the few decent men out there and I love his intelligence and sense of humour.


He is kind and considerate and I love that as successful and good looking as he is, he is not arrogant.


I have always wanted a daughter with green eyes and with MC also having green eyes it is almost guaranteed!


And he likes the name Layla (which is going to be my daughters name!)




He is a fellow Gemini, so we already understand each other really well.


He also gives the best hugs and he thinks I have a sexy bum (bonus points considering I am the fattest I have ever been) and he loves giving me foot rubs.


I love that he strokes my leg while we are sitting down and the gentle kisses he gives me on my temple and in my neck. (I do wish I got more of those but I look forward to and hope that I get a chance to get more of those)


I love the fact that he came back to Jhb 2 weeks later to visit me because 1 month was just too long to wait.




He is genuinely nice to people – no just his friends – but waitresses as well (for me this is always a good indication of a persons character)


He is an animal lover and feels as strongly about them as I do.




And he loves cats, has 2 of his own and he enjoys Girly movies – could he be any more perfect??


Oh and how about the fact that I absolutely love his friends? I think they are the most awesome people!


Now tell me this: Why wouldn’t I want to marry him?

I love Surprises!!

Day 1- 31 December:



I woke up this morning with a man in my bed!

MC was due to arrive yesterday for my much-anticipated visit.


Imagine my mammoth disappointment when I spoke to him at 4pm when he broke the news that there were no flights, but he promised to visit me in the first week of January.

I made plans with Dino for a movie instead, I was NOT going to sit at home moping. (as much as I would have liked to!)


A few minutes later I get a call from RaceCar telling me they feel so bad that MC couldn’t make dinner so they were taking me for dinner instead.


I told them I couldn’t make it and he uncharacteristically wouldn’t let me out of it.


I had to break a rule and cancel my plans with Dino.


At 8 pm Race Car & AC fetched me and off we went to Emperors Palace.


We were so busy looking at the Gautrain that we missed the turn off and ended up at the airport.


We pulled over to get the Garmin and the next minute MC is walking towards the car!


That was like the best surprise ever! I didn’t expect a thing!


Even thinking about it this morning, I grin stupidly (cue floating hearts out of eyes)


MC and I sat chatting until 6am the next morning and let me state for the record – I am crazy about him!

I have met a man that actually gets me! He understands the way I think and he keeps me entertained.


Man I am hooked scared – this means that all the effort spent getting over my break up (this break up fucked me royally for the entire year) has now reached it’s end.



I am over Alex. (Hale - fucking - luja)


And now MC has the ability to break my newly mended heart.

I say BRING IT ON – I think he is worth the risk!



Day 2 – 31 December


Not going as anticipated.


A bit disappointing – I can’t figure out the sudden reason for his wall.

And no kissing or action of any sorts. WTF????

Luckily we’re going out to celebrate New Years and Racecars birthday at the Barnyard Theatre.

Happy Birthday RaceCar!

Day 3 – 1 January


Happy 2010 everyone!


Going a bit better with MC but still scary stuff. He was great last night and more relaxed. This morning – back to being reserved.


I am confused.


Why isn’t it flowing as easily as Day 1 and the wedding?

He says he is generally quiet but I have a feeling something is up.

Day 4 – 2 January


MC and I had a good heart to heart last night. (and got a little bit of naked action – high emotions and sex can become somewhat intertwined at times)

The reason for his wall?


Very recent break up with Devils Spawn. (not is words – mine from what RaceCar tells me)

He is taking it quite badly and didn’t realise how much it had affected him.


I am glad he told me and I gave him some pertinent advice – I can speak from experience after my rollercoaster relationship with BD.


He said it helped. It definitely brought us closer.


For his sake I hope he moves on – it isn’t a good place to be.


For my sake I hope he moves on – I want him!


I dropped him off at the airport today and I was relieved and sad to see him go.

He has a lot to sort through and I am sure I am not making it easier. I took major strain while he was here and because I have such strong feelings for him, my emotions are tied up with how he is feeling.

After Alex and I broke up I was destroyed. I had thought Alex was the One. And I still think we could have had a really solid marriage.


Clearly it was not meant to be.

I was beginning to give up hope of ever meeting anyone like Alex again.


And in walks MC. He has renewed my hope.


I have not felt like this about anybody since Alex and I had almost forgotten what it felt like to actually meet someone who was just right for me. I think MC and I have major, serious potential for something long term.

I hope that he sees me for who I am. I don’t want this chance to slip through my fingers.


Problem 1: He lives in Durban and I live in Jhb.


I don’t see me moving to Durban for him. (never say never, but I don’t think I could leave my friends and family)


He has just starting working for a great company – I don’t see him wanting to leave Durban to come here)

But… I will cross that bridge when and if it comes to it.

Something I remembered the other day:


A couple of years back I went to see a Psychic and asked her my relationship future.

She said I would have my heart broken by a dark haired guy and then a fair haired guy – once I had healed I would meet the man I would marry.

At that stage BD had broken my heart. (Dark hair)


Then last year (January 2009) Alex broke my heart (Fair hair)

Is MC The One?

Time will tell.

Tales from...

The Slutty side...or the Flirty side- depending on your moral standpoint!

Up until recently I was experiencing a bit of a dry spell.
Open up the heavens- the rain has come!
MBA broke the spell, then MC stole my heart.
However,the nympho in me is still demanding to be satisfied.
Cue Dino.
I met Dino on the dating site back in April. No chemistry, but we stayed friends.
I recently went with him to a friend's wedding in Nelspruit and then on to a Game Lodge in Sabi Sabi.
Bliss!
Glass walled bathroom, outdoor shower, private pool on the deck overlooking animal's drinking hole.

Add some champagne to the over-demanding hormones and you have a recipe for some Ka-foofling...
Started off with a bit of touching... And again I ended up naked!
Thank goodness I still have enough sense not to actually sleep with these guys.
I'm very selective with who I sleep with.
But when you're a girl like me who has the body of a woman but thinks like a man- I need action because I'm thinking about it All. The. Time!

Meanwhile my heart has been with MC.
We smsed a couple of times a day for the entire time I was away.
He has even made me lose the bet and has said that if I'm still keen he'd like to come to Jhb for New Years Eve. I'm so excited about seeing him and the fact that he is willing to come back to see me! He's also hinted that he is going to spend 3 hours searching for my ON button (I call it my Kryptonite!) ;-)

Until the day after Christmas.

He called me on Christmas day and we had a really fun chat.
From 26 Dec I have heard nothing from him.
It is so disappointing for me!
I am trying to think positively but "He's Just Not That Into You" taught me that a man's behaviour is seldom as complicated as we like to make it.

I will have to wait until 30 Dec- if he arrives then all will be right with my fragile heart!
If not? I don't even want to think about how disappointed and heartbroken I will be.

Man I'm besotted with him!

I don't often feel emotionally moved by a man- physically? Easily!
Intellectually- not often.

MC is good looking and he is intelligent!

Hold thumbs people- I'm hoping MC is into me...