Happiness is....

Blog everyday in May - Day 14: Ten things that make you really happy

1. Hugs
2. Coffee
3. Bacon
4. A purring kitty on my lap
5. Listening/watching One Direction songs/videos
6. Going on holiday
7. Taking photographs
8. Laughing with my family & friends (these are in no particular order!)
9. My nephew
10. Being tickled (the gentle kind, not the "funny" kind)

Challenges Remaining:
Day 15, Wednesday: A Day in the life (include photos from throughout your typical day – this could be “a photo an hour” if you’d like)
Day 16, Thursday: Something difficult about your “lot in life” and how you’re working to overcome it
Day 17, Friday: A favorite photo of yourself and why
Day 18, Saturday: Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.
Day 19, Sunday: Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them
Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you’re struggling with right now.
Day 21, Tuesday: A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives
Day 22, Wednesday: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)
Day 23, Thursday: Things you’ve learned that school won’t teach you
Day 24, Friday: Your top 3 worst traits
Day 25, Saturday: Something someone told you about yourself that you’ll never forget (good or bad)
Day 26, Sunday: Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you’d like.
Day 27, Monday: A letter to your readers
Day 28, Tuesday: Only pictures
Day 29, Wednesday: Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. UseGrooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post
Day 30, Thursday: React to this term: Letting Go
Day 31, Friday: A vivid memory

Steamy Dreams & My Reality

Last night I had one of those Hot & Steamy dreams....

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to wake up.

We all know I am not shy about sex - I am after all a woman with the sex-crazed mind of a man - and lately with all the work stress I have not really had much opportunity. (Not as much as I would like anyway!)

21 March is a public holiday here - looks like it is a lucky day for me, I am seeing "Iron Man" again!

Woo Hoo, just what my hormones ordered!

Action? YES PLEASE

I am a bad girl with standards

MC kindly accompanied me to the wedding (pictures to follow) & is here for a couple of days.

He has still not made a move & for once I find myself being extremely shy.

I am not sure whether or not to make a move on him. I would hate there to be an awkward vibe between us if he is not interested.

Right: I am cracking open the wine tonight - maybe it will be good for both of us.

1 seduction on it's way......

Finally some action!

It has been a very long dry spell for me in the action department.

I am pleased to announce that it has been broken. (WOO HOO!!)

Iron Man and I have known each other for about a year.

He has always had an interest in me, and I only know this because he made a comment that he thinks I have a hot body and better cleavage.

He is 28, so we have very similar interests.

Anyway, long story short. This time I gave in to his flirting and spent the night with him.

Holy crap - he is amazing in bed! Super attentive and I like a man who takes control.

I spent a few nights with him for some fun and I suppose the fact that nobody else knows, makes it more delicious.

I have been going to the gym and those nights I worked muscles that the gym does not even touch!

Some of the reasons I loved being with him:

• He plays footsie footsie with me at dinner
• He sends me sexy, flirty and sweet messages
• He BBMs me to tell me I am Hot, even though he is sitting right across from me
• He bought 10 Tequila shots so that he could get me a cute cowboy hat because he thought I would like it (I loved it)
• He kept me warm at a show while it was freezing cold.
• He loves my butt
• He sends me a kiss on BBM every morning.
• He asked me so sweetly to cuddle up to him and stay the night with him
• He put a funny half naked photo of himself as my screensaver on my phone when I wasn't looking
• We play a fun game every day where we have t guess what colour underwear the other is wearing - if we get it wrong, we send a pic in our underwear, If we get it right, we get a pic with no underwear on.
  To date, we have yet to be right! But I have a blast receiving all his photos and taking sexy pics for him too.
• We have a code-name for sex.  This way we can throw it into casual conversation and no-one will have any idea what we are talking about.
• One of my sweetest memories: He told me I am Lovely while kissing his way down my body. For some reason that simple little comment really touched me.
• 2nd favourite memory: 1 night we were out at a "club" and he leaned over and gave me a gentle kiss on my shoulder.
  My pulse starts racing even now when I think of that tender, sexy gesture.

At the end of the day though, it wasn't just about sex.
I seem to have developed a soft spot for him.
I enjoy being with him, he makes me feel really sexy & I love being folded in his arms when he hugs me. I love that I have seen the softer side of him and I really wish that I had been able to spend a whole night in his arms.

And I really miss him.

He makes me feel like a woman, and I am really glad that he was the one who broke the dry spell, it was worth the wait.....
He has now gone back home... I only get to see him in November again. It's gonna be a long few months!

Pity about the 1 little ... complication

Almost 6 Months...

... I can't go on like this.
A nymphomaniac in a Dry Spell
Something is very wrong with this picture...

kartoen.de

Men!

After QT & I ended it, we kinda hooked up again occasionally for a movie and a bit of action.

That dwindled off as he got into the party scene with his friends again (he is only 22 after all) & as I found out on Facebook the other day - he is also "ina relationship" but it is complicated.

I started my mini "thing" with Cutie (also 22) & soon broke it off when I realised I was going nowhere with it.

Let's be honest - you need true passion if you are going to be with someone - and that is something that is sorely lacking in my life at the moment.

MC has let me down and I am currently debating whether or not to cut him out of my life once and for all.

He came up with a great idea to go away for our birthdays because we are a week apart. I loved the idea and did some research into possible accommodations.

I have always wanted to stay in the cutest little treehouses which also boast a private jacuzzi bath in another little tree linked by a walkway.

The treehouses are along the Midlands Meander, and because MC is from that area, I would fly to him and we could drive there.

It is a bit pricey, but I am prepared to stay there a night or 2 and spend the rest of the week at his place where we can laze about and watch dvds and eat popcorn.

I am still waiting for him to commit to anything. Seriously?!

It p!sses me off that this was his idea to begin with & now he just ignores me when I ask him what is happening.

A night or 2 is not too hard on the pocket- surely a night or 2 is not unrealistic if he had considered what budget he would need for a week away.

I have pretty much given him an ultimatum on the holiday - but I have now decided that the ultimatum will extend to our friendship/relationship as well.

I will not be messed around by anybody - he has a few days to give me his decision & if I hear nothing from him, then that is over.

I am crazy about him. But I am not crazy

My Blog is 1!!

Today - 1 year ago I ventured out into the big bad world of anonymous blogging!

I love that I can speak my mind without having people I know misinterpreting what I have said.

I love that I can fully admit to being a raging nymphomaniac and not having people judge me.

I never imagined that I would meet such unbelievable people out there. I never imagined that I would end up speaking about my life in general - this was supposed to be an outlet for my fantasies and forbidden thoughts - in the end it has turned out to be a bit of both.

This year has seen me through a relationship with QT and a sexy flirtation with MC and a little affair with MBA.

I hope the next year brings me:

Lots of action  - I am feeling the strain of not getting any for a few weeks now and I am ready to burst. For me, sex really is an addiction. I crave that physical chemistry that only a fellow human can share with you - a vibrator - no matter how pretty pink and sparkly it is - can only do so much - which is just not enough!
There is definitely something special about sex with a person you love - the bond is so special and really strong. But every now and then some Hot, Nasty, Animal Sex is all I need!

Career settlement - After this crazy year or hanging in there and fighting for what I want, I hope that next year I can reap the benefits. I don't want to lose a relationship over my career again. I want to be happy and settled and doing what I truly have a passion for, and something I am good at.

Financial stability - this is a worry of mine for a while now, and I am hoping that if all continues as well as it has, that I will reach my goal.

A stunning overseas holiday - it has been a few years since I went overseas and I am dreaming of white sand, crystal clear seas and some beautiful architecture thrown in. So perhaps Thailand and somewhere else  -another visit to Italy?

Meeting my soulmate - I am 31. I need to start settling down sometime. Meeting my soulmate and experiencing the newness of a relationship that has a future is something I look forward to. Marriage in the future and then maybe children sometime further into the future. (but not before some exciting action!)

And I never want to repeat another year like this ever again!

So cheers to all of you that have visited, commented and stayed. 


Thank you for the thoughts and comments and love and support - I look forward to another fun year of blogging.

Keeping busy

If I had known that having a Toy-Boy was this much fun, I would have done it so much sooner!

QT is everything you want in a man - plus he has the stamina of a ... 21 year old!

He is attentive and oh-so-romantic. He thinks I am sexy and calls me Princess, Honey and Baby and Pumpkin.

He tickles my back, holds my hand & kisses me in public, is crazy about me and is selfless in the... oral department.

And he brings me coffee in bed.

If this man was 5 years older I would marry him tomorrow.

Our sex life is awesome, he loves experimenting as much as I do and he is so talented with his tongue.

With all this amazing action - Makes me forget that I am homeless at the end of this week.

HNAS

Hot. Nasty. Animal. Sex.

Does the trick every time.

Action

I seriously need some action wild, passionate sex.

My hormones are whizzing through my veins & all I can think of is being pushed up against a wall, my clothes ripped off, heavy breathing, wild kissing and lots of steamy skin on skin action.

I love Surprises!!

Day 1- 31 December:



I woke up this morning with a man in my bed!

MC was due to arrive yesterday for my much-anticipated visit.


Imagine my mammoth disappointment when I spoke to him at 4pm when he broke the news that there were no flights, but he promised to visit me in the first week of January.

I made plans with Dino for a movie instead, I was NOT going to sit at home moping. (as much as I would have liked to!)


A few minutes later I get a call from RaceCar telling me they feel so bad that MC couldn’t make dinner so they were taking me for dinner instead.


I told them I couldn’t make it and he uncharacteristically wouldn’t let me out of it.


I had to break a rule and cancel my plans with Dino.


At 8 pm Race Car & AC fetched me and off we went to Emperors Palace.


We were so busy looking at the Gautrain that we missed the turn off and ended up at the airport.


We pulled over to get the Garmin and the next minute MC is walking towards the car!


That was like the best surprise ever! I didn’t expect a thing!


Even thinking about it this morning, I grin stupidly (cue floating hearts out of eyes)


MC and I sat chatting until 6am the next morning and let me state for the record – I am crazy about him!

I have met a man that actually gets me! He understands the way I think and he keeps me entertained.


Man I am hooked scared – this means that all the effort spent getting over my break up (this break up fucked me royally for the entire year) has now reached it’s end.



I am over Alex. (Hale - fucking - luja)


And now MC has the ability to break my newly mended heart.

I say BRING IT ON – I think he is worth the risk!



Day 2 – 31 December


Not going as anticipated.


A bit disappointing – I can’t figure out the sudden reason for his wall.

And no kissing or action of any sorts. WTF????

Luckily we’re going out to celebrate New Years and Racecars birthday at the Barnyard Theatre.

Happy Birthday RaceCar!

Day 3 – 1 January


Happy 2010 everyone!


Going a bit better with MC but still scary stuff. He was great last night and more relaxed. This morning – back to being reserved.


I am confused.


Why isn’t it flowing as easily as Day 1 and the wedding?

He says he is generally quiet but I have a feeling something is up.

Day 4 – 2 January


MC and I had a good heart to heart last night. (and got a little bit of naked action – high emotions and sex can become somewhat intertwined at times)

The reason for his wall?


Very recent break up with Devils Spawn. (not is words – mine from what RaceCar tells me)

He is taking it quite badly and didn’t realise how much it had affected him.


I am glad he told me and I gave him some pertinent advice – I can speak from experience after my rollercoaster relationship with BD.


He said it helped. It definitely brought us closer.


For his sake I hope he moves on – it isn’t a good place to be.


For my sake I hope he moves on – I want him!


I dropped him off at the airport today and I was relieved and sad to see him go.

He has a lot to sort through and I am sure I am not making it easier. I took major strain while he was here and because I have such strong feelings for him, my emotions are tied up with how he is feeling.

After Alex and I broke up I was destroyed. I had thought Alex was the One. And I still think we could have had a really solid marriage.


Clearly it was not meant to be.

I was beginning to give up hope of ever meeting anyone like Alex again.


And in walks MC. He has renewed my hope.


I have not felt like this about anybody since Alex and I had almost forgotten what it felt like to actually meet someone who was just right for me. I think MC and I have major, serious potential for something long term.

I hope that he sees me for who I am. I don’t want this chance to slip through my fingers.


Problem 1: He lives in Durban and I live in Jhb.


I don’t see me moving to Durban for him. (never say never, but I don’t think I could leave my friends and family)


He has just starting working for a great company – I don’t see him wanting to leave Durban to come here)

But… I will cross that bridge when and if it comes to it.

Something I remembered the other day:


A couple of years back I went to see a Psychic and asked her my relationship future.

She said I would have my heart broken by a dark haired guy and then a fair haired guy – once I had healed I would meet the man I would marry.

At that stage BD had broken my heart. (Dark hair)


Then last year (January 2009) Alex broke my heart (Fair hair)

Is MC The One?

Time will tell.

Tales from...

The Slutty side...or the Flirty side- depending on your moral standpoint!

Up until recently I was experiencing a bit of a dry spell.
Open up the heavens- the rain has come!
MBA broke the spell, then MC stole my heart.
However,the nympho in me is still demanding to be satisfied.
Cue Dino.
I met Dino on the dating site back in April. No chemistry, but we stayed friends.
I recently went with him to a friend's wedding in Nelspruit and then on to a Game Lodge in Sabi Sabi.
Bliss!
Glass walled bathroom, outdoor shower, private pool on the deck overlooking animal's drinking hole.

Add some champagne to the over-demanding hormones and you have a recipe for some Ka-foofling...
Started off with a bit of touching... And again I ended up naked!
Thank goodness I still have enough sense not to actually sleep with these guys.
I'm very selective with who I sleep with.
But when you're a girl like me who has the body of a woman but thinks like a man- I need action because I'm thinking about it All. The. Time!

Meanwhile my heart has been with MC.
We smsed a couple of times a day for the entire time I was away.
He has even made me lose the bet and has said that if I'm still keen he'd like to come to Jhb for New Years Eve. I'm so excited about seeing him and the fact that he is willing to come back to see me! He's also hinted that he is going to spend 3 hours searching for my ON button (I call it my Kryptonite!) ;-)

Until the day after Christmas.

He called me on Christmas day and we had a really fun chat.
From 26 Dec I have heard nothing from him.
It is so disappointing for me!
I am trying to think positively but "He's Just Not That Into You" taught me that a man's behaviour is seldom as complicated as we like to make it.

I will have to wait until 30 Dec- if he arrives then all will be right with my fragile heart!
If not? I don't even want to think about how disappointed and heartbroken I will be.

Man I'm besotted with him!

I don't often feel emotionally moved by a man- physically? Easily!
Intellectually- not often.

MC is good looking and he is intelligent!

Hold thumbs people- I'm hoping MC is into me...