Things I miss....

1. Talking to MC on the phone
2. My waistline
3. GF
4. Hugs from QT
5. Kisses from MBA
6. Eden concerts in the good old days where Johan used to wave at me from stage
7. Boomie
8. My grandfather
9. Our yearly birthday cocktail ritual with BD
10. Vampire Diaries
11. Game nights
12. My Grans coffee
13. Believing in Father Christmas / Easter Bunny / Tooth Mouse
14. My place in Sunninghill
15. My clothes that dont fit me anymore
16. My pretty elephant bracelet I used to wear

Goodbye Bad week

What a shockingly terrible week this has been!

My boss decided to use me as the outlet for all the problems in the company - if I get crapped out once more for something that was NOT my fault I am going to run into the first sharp object I can find!

Then MBA decides that before his feelings get in the way of our Action - he had better call it quits.

I can definitely understand where he is coming from, but I am bitterly disappointed because I was really enjoying the kissing.

Can he kiss - oh my goodness I get warm just thinking about it!

So that is now the end of the action - and I must admit that it was nice to feel wanted again - I am still feeling low about MC.

It has been over a week and I have heard nothing from him. Urgh!

Last night 1 of my closest friends Tee phoned me to tell me that her and her new boyfriend of 2 weeks - G5 had split up.

I really thought that G5 was the guy that was going to be different - he seemed to be totally enamoured with Tee and seemed to be a great guy. I was going to meet him this Saturday.

Last night he told her that he felt she was having a bad effect on his life.

She is taking it rather badly and I really feel sorry for her.

Today I get a call from a debt collector letting me know that I have been handed over for an account from when my appendix burst in 2008.

I had never even received an account or a phone call. It makes me so angry.

I used to deal with accounts and I used to have to hand them over - so I know the process involved.

January is a long month and now I have to pay R600 over!

Hopefully this weekend will be better.

Overcoming Disappointments

Have not heard a word from MC since last week Wednesday.

It SUCKS.

There is nothing I can do.... I do not run after any man. EVER.

I am convinced he is back together with his girlfriend and doesn't have the guts to tell me.

I will bide my time. I am still convinced we would be good together - he will realise this eventually.

I will be there when he does, but I will not be waiting! No Siree!

Already the flirting is in full force.

I was feeling really bad about things & it sort of pushed me into going a bit further with MBA than I had intended.

Shit that man can kiss!! He has talents with his tongue that make me weak at the knees and literally had my fingertips and toes & even the end of my nose Tingling!

I know it isn't right to carry on because it might give him false hope - but right now he is helping to restore some of my confidence.

His kisses are addictive!

In other news:
The Bax will be returning to SA at the end of January - he and I have a dinner date, and I plan to fully seduce him!
Today he was saying that he turns 39 in February.
I teased him that he was old and he said, "you're only as old as the woman you feel"
So I retorted, "In that case I can arrange that you feel 30!"
I had him speechless and he laughed and said he's blushing! ha ha

I hope we get a repeat of that night in his hotel room - now that was amazing passion! My heart rate trebles when I think of it!!

My hormones are going beserk and I have been enjoying the harmless flirting with a few guys I know. (If I am very honest my heart is still sore) but nothing like good flirting to make me forget my pain.

What I would really like to do is to grab a young guy. That is my next goal - when I can pluck up the courage to do it!
My housemate has a sexy 19 year old brother who said he would do me (his words not mine) but I have a feeling he would chicken out if it had to go further.
A woman I worked with has a cute 21 year old son who is into me, but it is too close to home.

RaceCar has a really sexy guy working with him - QT... he has the most stunning blue eyes and is the sweetest guy.
I think he is into me, but it is too close to MC and I am not chancing anything.

So there go all my options... darn!

Stay tuned for the next installment of "My Raging Hormones."

Sometimes things just happen

I have been feeling a bit despondant about my love life of late.



I am 30 years old and as much as I love the freedom of being single and able to kiss or date from a variety of men – it isn’t always fun and games.


Good decent men are hard to meet.


They are either all dating a woman from hell or are gay.


There are lots of guys out there with issues – believe me.


I have had my share of married men wanting to marry me and if I agree they will leave their wife. Sure thing! (NOT)


Another one wanting me as his piece on the side, even while I am happily dating. (Never mind the fact that 1 of my friends is his wife!!)


So anyway – MBA and I had dinner at his place on Monday night – I often go over to him and we have dinner, watch a dvd and chat about the state of our lives.


He, like me is still single at 30 and even more difficult than I am!


I find that he keeps too much of a tight rein – too much self control.

Monday night started much the same.


We ate and watched a bit of TV and he started tickling me – people love tickling me because I am so ticklish.


The problem with MBA being my friend – he knows all my most sensitive spots – I have shared this with him over the years.


My hip bone and neck are my favourite places to be kissed!


Would stand to reason that my hip is also very ticklish - he was tickling me until I was gasping for breathe when suddenly he leans down and kisses my hip.

That is my ON button – and with the current state of my hormones I had to grind my teeth together to stop from grabbing his head and begging him to carry on.


He stopped and looked at me and I think he saw the naked desire etched onto my features because he dipped in gain and proceeded to kiss both hips and my entire stomach.


That cracked the last vestige of self-control I had left – I grabbed him and kissed him.

We have been friends for 16 year and most of those years he has had a huge crush on me.


This complicates things.

It didn’t stop at a kiss. I managed to peel his shirt off and was finally able to run my hands over those firm muscles sculpting his chest, arms and stomach that I have secretly perved over for the past few years.


A couple of hours later – we were both naked. Yep, that’s right.


I didn’t do the deed if you are wondering.


I stayed the night and went home the next morning.

What surprised me is that it wasn’t uncomfortable – as I had always thought it would be.


He is a really good kisser!

Where does this leave us?

Friends with Benefits?
Act as if nothing happened?
I don’t know.


He is not my Mr Right – but I seriously enjoyed the physical closeness – it helps that we have known each other for so long.

But wait the Plot thickens… see upcoming Blog entry….

One of them....

MBA & I have been friends since highschool.



He is a very serious type of guy who worries too much about what people think of him and hardly opens up at all - but when you get to know him it is worth the patience.


I am one of the lucky few to know him really well.


Last night we go to his company function at a stunning venue called Summer Place.

We are standing outside chatting and he shares something with me that makes me blush with embarrassment.


A few years back while picnicking we were lying on the blanket chatting.


One of the Twins made an appearance – my boob popped out of it’s top.


Oh. My. Freaking. Hell.


Not something I want my male friends seeing!


I have been told I have nothing to worry about in the breast department, and I guess I am lucky to have been blessed with a decent sized cleavage that passes the pencil test, even at 30 when they are starting to succumb to Gravity’s sweet enticement, they are still firm enough.


I actually have a fan group on Facebook because my friend A brought it up in front of her boyfriend and from there it snowballed to such an extent that we all end up having random discussions about them. (don’t ask!)


The group however is all PG – nothing to shock anybody. So knowing that MBA has seen one… mmhhh


Meanwhile I am a walking hormone lately because I am not getting any action and desperately trying to distract my mind with other meaningless tasks.


It isn’t helping and standing so close to MBA last night I used a lot of self restraint not to kiss him.


He has a history of having feelings for me and I am not sure how he would respond to that. I wouldn’t want to ruin what we have – but at the same time I am curious to see how he kisses.

Do I – Don’t I?