Kelly Clarkson ROCKS!!

Friday I was lucky enough to be given a spare ticket to Kelly Clarkson!

I am  HUGE fan of hers and I love her songs because she always manages a way to voice the thoughts I have in my head about love and heartache.

Behind these Hazel Eyes is 1 of my favourites and now Long Shot is another - I simply cannot get sick of her music.

Let me say when she walked onto stage - I was blown away - she is so... NORMAL.

Jeans and T shirt, shirt nails and some nice eye make up. I guess when you have a voice like that - why do you need all the other bits of decoration.

Since you've been gone was a huge crowd pelaser and had me singing so loudly I almost lost my voice (trust me this is as possible as my friend Tee saying no to a Chocolate Martini!)

Capetonians - take along comfy shoes because you are going to want to jump up and down with all the 15 year old groupies at the show!

ENJOY!

It's complicated!

I have nearly lost my mind a few times these past few weeks.

How I am holding onto my sanity - is beyond me.

Between finding a place to stay and then moving in at the very last minute to an uninhabitable place, to my (ex) house mate being downright rude to me on move out day, to work being an absolute nightmare.

The situation between MC & QT has been playing on my mind alot and all came to a head the other night.

Let me just state for the record that QT is unbelievable.

This man is awesome and I cant say enough how I wish he was older.

I had a bad week last week and the only thing that got me through it was QT. He is quitely supportive and oh so sweet.

I have been considering putting a holt on my relationship whatever you want to call it with MC. There is not much going on besides our conversations.

Yet I cant break the hold he seems to have on me. I cant imagine my life without MC.

QT was never supposed to be any more than wishful thinking on my side, then when we hooked up, I thought it was a flash in the pan.

Now I know it isn't.

I want QT in my life always - I guess deep down I know nothing will ever come of it because of he age gap - yet I hope to be there to watch him grow into the amazing man I know he is destined to become.

I am jealous of the girl who will get him 1 day.

I have been so worried about QT getting hurt - so when he told me he knew - I was devastated that he might be hurt and then so relieved when he seemed ok with it.

He then asked me to be his girlfriend - oh man how I wish I could say yes!

But that just gives me more of a chance to hurt him - and I am avoiding that all costs!

So instead I have now changed my status on Facebook - "its complicated"

That sums it up!

Heed my words

• Never Trust a person who doesn't have plants
• Never trust a person who doesnt like animals
• Never trust a 21 year old when he says Trust Me - no matter how gentle he is, he will still give you sore muscles that you never knew existed because he has youth on his side!

Keeping busy

If I had known that having a Toy-Boy was this much fun, I would have done it so much sooner!

QT is everything you want in a man - plus he has the stamina of a ... 21 year old!

He is attentive and oh-so-romantic. He thinks I am sexy and calls me Princess, Honey and Baby and Pumpkin.

He tickles my back, holds my hand & kisses me in public, is crazy about me and is selfless in the... oral department.

And he brings me coffee in bed.

If this man was 5 years older I would marry him tomorrow.

Our sex life is awesome, he loves experimenting as much as I do and he is so talented with his tongue.

With all this amazing action - Makes me forget that I am homeless at the end of this week.

Checking in

What a rollercoaster ride lately!
I must say I have been missing my Blogging  - these are my therapy sessions!

So much has been happening, so let me fill you in...

QT, what a sweetie pie. He is an absolute gentlemen and has such a good heart.

We all slept over at RaceCar and AC the other night - and QT and I stayed up chatting. And he kissed me.
Now as much as I have been attracted to him, I never imagined ever making a move to kiss him - oh yes, he is 21!
But let me tell you - this Cutie Pie can kiss!

I was blown away! and he tickles you as he kisses, and I am a sucker for kisses and tickles!

We have chatted about how we want such different things in life - his dating life holds so much more still to come! I have dated and I am ready to settle down.
So we have agreed to take it a day at a time and see where we end up.

He makes me feel sexy and I love spending time with him.

Yes I have a Toy Boy! *Grin*

MC...

I cannot tell you how well things have been going with him.
I am getting impatient though - I realise he has so much to work through and I need to be patient, but it is difficult - especially considering I want him!

On Friday we had our usual daily chat and i said how I was not looking forward to Valentines Day. MC hates VDay, he says that it is a commercial holiday designed to make money, blah blah blah.
I told him it is a chance toshow someone you care, without the need to buy expensive presents.
So he says to me, I should fly to Durban and visit him.
I decided to be spontaneous and thought - what the hell?

Hopped on a plane on Saturday and went to Durban!
He fetched me from the airport and took me to the hotel - he had booked us in to a hotel on the beachfront!

We had champagne, chocolates and fudge and I gave him a massage which turned into some action!
He took me around and showed me all the places he has been talking about over the last months and now I have an idea of what his life is like.

Late Sunday night I was back in Jhb - back to reality.

MC still has so much to work through- I was exactly where he is this time last year - so I know how he feels.

But a small part of me cant help but want him to realise that  I am the one for him.
Surely this should help him to feel better?