Not for sensitive readers!!

Yes this my thumb, sans nail.

YUCK

The white stuff is anti bacterial ointment, trust me, it makes my thumb look prettier than it is.

Doc had a look today and is happy - he says I will have a full, brand new nail in 6 months.

It better not stay this freaking sore til then.

I have almost passed out everyday when I have had to clean it.

I am washing my hair with 1 hand, getting dressed with 1 hand. It is so frustrating.

It took me 10 minutes to get my watch off yesterday- so now I have stopped wearing it.

Important lesson learnt throughout this process:

Don't drink Synap Forte with any fizzy colddrink - it makes the tablet fizz up and tastes disgusting!

QT

Once again QT is proving himself to be an absolute gentleman.

He calls me yesterday after work and tells me insists on coming over and bringing me dinner.

He lay with me and tickled my back as I struggled with the pain and he even took my nail polish off my toes because the polish remover affects my fingernails.

Is that not just the ultimate man??

He bought me "Princess" by Vera Wang. I have to wait for my birthday but I am so excited! It is a purple heart with a Princess crown lid!

(QT & my work colleague GF call me Princess - I have tons of little keyrings that say Princess as well as a fun crown and I even wore a little tiara last year at my 30th)

QT just makes me so happy - I cannot explain how amazing it is to have someone who cares about me and is always there when I need him without even having to ask.

We get along so well - and I find it so easy to be with him.

I miss hime when I am not with him and I revel in the times when I am with him.

I have become one of those couples that can't keep their hands to themselves - I constantly want to be in his arms surrounded by his smell!

I am crazy about him - more than I ever thought imaginable.

Eina!

I stopped being stubborn & had my thumb nail removed.

I like the way nobody tells me how freaking sore it is!! They all told me to do it, but only after the removal do they tell me their painful stories!!

8 painful injections later - oh my word!

45 minutes after we stopped the copious amounts of blood - feeling had already started returning.

I am now permanently high on painkillers (they should be called Sleep inducers) they dont actually kill the pain, they make it so hard for you to stay awake and you are so busy concentrating on not drooling or hitting your head on the desk that you almost (almost!!) forget that blinding pain in your thumb that has a heartbeat of it's own.

I go for a check up on Thursday.

Disappointment

QT suggests we go away for my birthday and I get all excited.

Today he tells me that they are racing and we can't go.


Why get my hopes up? Rather look at the schedule before even suggesting it.


If I had never had any expectations, I would have planned my masked ball for that evening and that would have been that.

Now I am disappointed that we're not going away and because of that I dont really feel like a party either.


No expectations, no disappointment.

I am feeling frustrated and annoyed. I dont want to pick a fight with him, but I can see it coming.

I had to drive to his place because his 19yr old sister does not like to be left alone at home (in a complex with an alarm system), what about me driving so late at night in the rain and on a road filled with potholes?


I realise he is stuck between a rock and a hardplace... am I being unreasonable?

Ordinarily I would have driven to him just because it is fair for both of us to take turns to drive to each other. But when I am forced to - it leaves a very sour taste in my mouth.

When friends make mistakes

What do you do when your friend is making a heinous mistake and you just know that she is going to get hurt and make her life very complicated.
Tee dated an absolute loser at the beginning of the year - he suddenly broke up with her without an explanation.
A few months later he tells her is a recovering alcoholic (meanwhile he drinks her wine at the table and rocked up at her house rip roaring drunk)
They have been seeing each other again and they still fight over stupid things.

Yesterday she drops the bombshell that they are buying a house together and moving in together in August - they are back together.
(lift jaw off floor)
WTF???
Is she crazy?

Why on earth BUY a house with anstable person who has a very bad trackrecord in his treatment of you?

I gave her the self respect speech and I have told her she is making a mistake and she should think this through very carefully.

What else can I do??